Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

First Negative

**This blog was originally created in 2010 to document my husband and my life as we tried to get pregnant with our first child. After finding BDSM I repurposed the blog in 2014 to look at our kink and balancing it with the two children we now have. Please feel free to read the below posts and any from my 2010 and 2011 archive, but please be aware that they are not representative of our life now. Also, certain edits have been made to these posts. To start from the beginning of our kinky life, start here. **

We got our first negative today. I’m just hoping that there won’t be too many more. In fact, I’m having trouble accepting this negative. But, being my anal-retentive self, I’m sure I won’t let it go. It’s just weird that we finally made it to the testing phase and I guess I just wasn’t ready for the let down. All the pregnancy sites talk about how great it is to be pregnant. I’m not sure there are any good sites for those struggling. A friend of mine just found out she was pregnant after trying for over a year. She’s only in her mid-twenties, it frightens me to think that we will have the same difficulty. The gaps of time between calculating my ovulation and waiting to test are beyond stressful. To anyone who is also going through this or has gone through this, I feel your pain. And I wish you the best of luck in this joyful, painful struggle to begin or enlarge your family.


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