**This blog was originally created in 2010 to document my husband and my life as we tried to get pregnant with our first child. After finding BDSM I repurposed the blog in 2014 to look at our kink and balancing it with the two children we now have. Please feel free to read the below posts and any from my 2010 and 2011 archive, but please be aware that they are not representative of our life now. Also, certain edits have been made to these posts. To start from the beginning of our kinky life, start here. **
It’s been a very long week. I know, it’s only Monday. I guess I mean it’s been a long month.
Back into the waiting game for the pregnancy. I can’t test until late next week, so I just have to stew. It makes it hard to stay focused on anything. And a friend from high school just found out she’s pregnant with twins. I was talking to a friend on how to describe my feelings. I’m not bitter, I really happy for her, but I’m sad. I don’t like that.
D’s getting a little overwhelmed with school. Or maybe I’m getting a little overwhelmed with D and school. We’re hitting the home stretch though, only a month till exams and then end of the semester. They say the first year is the hardest. I sure hope so.
I just really feel like we are floating right now. We’re talking about buying a newer car, we’ve even looked at buying a house. So every unforeseen expense is stressing me out. I just feel like I’m in a no-win situation as we get closer to the Christmas season. I guess I could force the two of us into super save mode, but I have a feeling that that would just make us more stressed and upset. I don’t know about you, but if I don’t get a good greasy burger or taco every once in awhile I’m just inconsolable.
What I really need is to take a step back and figure things out. However, with work and everything going on at home, it’s not that easy to find time. I guess it’s a little comforting to think that it takes longer than 15 min. to sort out my life. But a day off isn’t coming until thanksgiving, so I’ll have to find time. I see a list in my future. Maybe this Saturday after grocery shopping. Instead of dishes I’ll try to plan our future. Ha!