Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

Stalling for time…

I am always jealous of people who know exactly what they want in life. My mother knew she wanted to be a teacher since she was in eighth grade. She went straight through and got her Phd and has been a professor teaching education for more than twenty-five years. I am always floored when I think of her determination.

I never had that type of practical goal. I am a dreamer. I always wanted to be a writer. J.K. Rowling was my wet dream. But a college degree in ‘so what’ and a master’s in ‘we’re not hiring’ have left my career aspirations at a stand still. As much as staying home is driving me crazy, it is easier than getting motivated. I know that my resume is a hard sell, but I can interview great. I have skills, they are just all over the map as far as what an employer is looking for. It is just a rabbit hole that I am dreading entering in the new year.

You can tell I don’t want to clean my house, I am talking about job stuff and goals for next year. My parents and mother-in-law are arriving tomorrow and I have a massive list of things to do. Sir’s task list is tiny, because my own list was even overwhelming him. But, I still have exercises to get done, so I guess I should stop stalling.

Not sure if I will get to write over the next few days. I may go hide up in the bedroom for a break at some point. Hope everyone has a good holiday, or is having a good holiday if you are currently celebrating Chanukah. Enjoy family and be safe.


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