Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

Never Forget

Sir: ‘You laugh and enjoy yourself for me, not you.’

I forget this, a lot. And even when I don’t forget, it is hard to keep this in mind. When things don’t go the way we planned, or I am having a bad day, it is hard to remember that he does want me to be happy. It is pretty logical though. Why would he want a stropy sub?
This trip has been hard for me. I miss him and am finding it especially difficult to enjoy myself. But that is what he wants. He wants me to have a good time, even though he isn’t here. If I am constantly writing to him that I am miserable, he wants to fix it, or take control. I need to focus on having a good time so he can focus on what is really important right now. I need to be a non-responsibility for him.
If being a sub was easy, everyone would do it. I want to make life better and easier for him. So I will have another cup of coffee and be positive. For him and my three year old who is starting to earnestly miss home. Sir is done with his work stuff, so he can relax and I can just enjoy the ride for the next few days.
I will enjoy myself for him. Because he wants me too.

2 Responses to “Never Forget”

  • DtBHC

    Submission is quite freeing when it works. Just being because it is the desired behaviour is so wonderful when it works. I hope you enjoy the last few days of your trip and your homecoming is everything you are expecting it to be. DtBHC.

    • CollaredMom

      I completely agree. It doesn’t always come together, but when it does, it is amazing. Thanks for your good wishes.

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