I am still processing this, but my mind works better when I write and reread my thoughts. So bear with me as I figure out the best and most polite way to ask Sir for whatever I figure out I need to ask him for.
I think I want to be his slave. I love him, I do. And I love what we have been doing the last three months. It hasn’t been perfect, but we are learning, and learning fast.
But things are finally getting settled. His current job craziness is now over, for the moment. And when I return from England I will be starting to work from home for a database company. Obviously things will arise, and we are still dealing with a home purchase hopefully some time this year.
However, I really do think I want to be a slave. For all intents and purposes a 24/7 fuck toy to serve him.
But…it does mean a lot for him to take on. I know that people think that Doms just have to show up and get sexual favors, but it is actually a lot of work. The consistency and monitoring and training takes a lot and I don’t want to sign him up for that if he has too much on his plate.
It is a goal though, maybe not right now, but someday. And I want to know if he thinks he could ever be my Master, rather than just my Sir. A lot more than just scenes and the occasional mind fuck.
I am still dealing with the realization that I want to be a slave. When I get home hopefully we can sit down and figure out what we both want and if it is a feasible time to try it.
We’ll see what happens. Wish me luck, I think.