Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

Un’Natural’ D/s

You are finally ready to talk to her. You have gone from porn to blogs to online seminars. You have thought out how to approach her, materials to show her. She loves you, she will at least hear you out. And she does, she is intrigued. She seems willing to try and you fall in love with her all over again. And she does try. She follows every order and crawls at your commands. Her eagerness to make you happy is astonishing. But, you crave this life. Your need to dominate her is as powerful as your need to breathe. Are you really getting everything you desire from this with a person who isn’t as invested as you? Are you hurting her somehow by forcing her into this just for you?

Can a ‘natural’ dominant or submissive be in a fulfilling D/s dynamic with someone who is only along for the ride? Will the supportive partner grow to love the lifestyle or resent their counterpart?
Just musings. I believe that fulfillment is possible. And the love and trust that must exist for one person to give themselves to this lifestyle without being personally drawn to it must be immense. I have great respect for those people who love their companions/spouses that much. I struggle with my submission and I crave it. In a world of uncertainty and confusion I have found something that makes sense to me. Having someone to share that need with, whether out of their own cravings or a love for my happiness is more than I could ever ask for. In fact, I would consider concluding that a partner who gives themselves over to this type of relationship without the guarantee of satisfaction other than their lover’s happiness cares even more than a natural kinkster.

Thank you Sir for taking this journey with me. As my Dom, my partner, my spouse. Our struggles to fulfill the needs of each other is an honorable one. Rather than shrug off the desires of one another, we have worked hard to make our kinks a realization. A non-masochist with a sadist. A service and sexual submissive with a husband who cares for her. Not always aligned, but always working toward a common goal. We fell into this and now that we have found it, neither will walk away without a fight. And that willingness to fight is what will help us find our way. Together.

2 Responses to “Un’Natural’ D/s”

  • DtBHC

    Lovely sentiments. Good luck with the journey.

    • CollaredMom

      Thank you. Sometimes you just need a little perspective.


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