Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

My List of Lists

Sir will be the first to tell you, I am a list queen. A running weekly grocery list is standard. But I also have daily task lists, lists of questions for my counselor and doctor. My Christmas shopping list is created around mid-September with budgets and ideas. My day planner has my tasks for the day and week as well as all my appointments and things that Sir needs me to handle. It can get pretty gross.

I have always been like this. It’s how I organize my life. Lists help me to stay

Lists of everything from groceries to goals for the week.
Lists of everything from groceries to goals for the week.

motivated and focused. While I have a strong work ethic, I do find it easy to be distracted when I am in the wrong environment. I have found, working from home is actually a terrible location for me. If I had my own office space with a door I could close, it would be different. But my desk and work space are currently in the dining room, which is rife with distractions. It has been a learning curve; I am used to a desk in an office where everyone around me is working too. Here I have the dog curled up on the couch behind me. And that couch looks really comfortable.

But the lists always bring me back to Sir’s expectations. He has helped me work through some of  my high and low days with weekly tasks. So if I have a bad day, I can do more the next day to make up for it. It has helped me to stay motivated, but still be held accountable. And seeing the things being marked off really help me to keep going. It’s an interesting cycle that completing something, however small, makes me want to complete more.

From back in late March. Don't believe the blank weekend.
From back in late March. Don’t believe the blank weekend.

Some people keep lists to remember things. I think the only list that that is relevant for me for is the working grocery list. When I empty a container or we run out of something I will put it on the list so that I remember to get more. But I have a very good memory. My lists are for motivation and personal self-worth. I look back on these pages. All these check marks of completion and I feel like I am doing my best for Sir. I really look at a physical representation of accomplishment. A completed project, a clean bathroom, a finished craft. That is why I struggle with an endless pile of dishes and laundry. It never feels complete.

Lists aren’t necessarily sexy for me. I will have sexy tasks from time to time. But they are more of the service aspect of our TPE relationship. They help me stay on task and provide everything that Sir requires. They help me to be a better slave.

Today’s List:

1. Work for 4 hours

2. Dishes

3. Laundry

4. Vacuum Dining room

5. Clean Bathroom, including scrubbing the shower

6. Dinner – Chicken Stir-Fry

7. Make baby food (use up the ripe mango)

8. Call to set up tattoo appointment (for touch-ups)

Wish me luck!

See how lists help and inspire others or share your own lists on this week’s Wicked Wednesday.

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8 Responses to “My List of Lists”

  • Marie Rebelle

    I find it really interesting to see the different reasons why people have lists, just like you use it for motivation and personal self-worth. It makes me think about the lists I keep, and yes, it does motivate me when I can cross things off. I actually just bought a new book to jot down my ideas and things I want to do, because my head is just getting too full to remember everything, which frustrates me.
    Thanks for sharing your lists 🙂

    Rebel xox

    • Rye

      Thanks. I too found it interesting how people keep lists for various reasons. Oddly enough, I don’t have a bucket list. Maybe I need to start one. I guess my 101 Things list counts though.

  • Simina

    I attempt to make to-do lists when I’m feeling particularly industrious, but I inevitably never follow my lists and schedules that I make. I have a tendency to wander away from projects if I’m bored or too tired. I imagine I will make more use of lists and schedules when I finally move in with Daddy, just to keep up with chores and such.

    • Rye

      I find it helpful with the chores. I don’t think about cleaning the stovetop until I am ready to start dinner, and that isn’t a good time. So the lists help me think about stuff that normally goes to the back of my mind. And I find that making the to-do lists forces me to be industrious, even when I don’t particularly feel it.

      Hope lists continue to help you. Glad to hear that things are doing better in general.

  • Dubs

    My god. Now those are lists! Fit, perhaps, for publishing! Does making a list or two ever make the list?

    • Rye

      There are a few list challenges on my 101 Things list, so yes; sometimes to make a list is on the list. 🙂

      I doubt anyone would pay me to publish them though.

  • rose

    Master bought me a filofax a few months ago and I have become completely obsessed with it. I’ve always been a list maker, like you, but I always put them in different places and had them half finished and lost them and then panicked about losing them and missing things and not getting enough done. Now I’m a bit more organised with the lists I make and how I use them and I absolutely love it. They’re so, so helpful for me.


    • Rye

      Glad you found something that works for you. It’s good to keep them together. I accidentally had a pile of clean towels on my planner the other day and started to panic that I lost it until I put the clean clothes away. I am just a spaz.


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