Sir will be the first to tell you, I am a list queen. A running weekly grocery list is standard. But I also have daily task lists, lists of questions for my counselor and doctor. My Christmas shopping list is created around mid-September with budgets and ideas. My day planner has my tasks for the day and week as well as all my appointments and things that Sir needs me to handle. It can get pretty gross.
I have always been like this. It’s how I organize my life. Lists help me to stay
motivated and focused. While I have a strong work ethic, I do find it easy to be distracted when I am in the wrong environment. I have found, working from home is actually a terrible location for me. If I had my own office space with a door I could close, it would be different. But my desk and work space are currently in the dining room, which is rife with distractions. It has been a learning curve; I am used to a desk in an office where everyone around me is working too. Here I have the dog curled up on the couch behind me. And that couch looks really comfortable.
But the lists always bring me back to Sir’s expectations. He has helped me work through some of my high and low days with weekly tasks. So if I have a bad day, I can do more the next day to make up for it. It has helped me to stay motivated, but still be held accountable. And seeing the things being marked off really help me to keep going. It’s an interesting cycle that completing something, however small, makes me want to complete more.
Some people keep lists to remember things. I think the only list that that is relevant for me for is the working grocery list. When I empty a container or we run out of something I will put it on the list so that I remember to get more. But I have a very good memory. My lists are for motivation and personal self-worth. I look back on these pages. All these check marks of completion and I feel like I am doing my best for Sir. I really look at a physical representation of accomplishment. A completed project, a clean bathroom, a finished craft. That is why I struggle with an endless pile of dishes and laundry. It never feels complete.
Lists aren’t necessarily sexy for me. I will have sexy tasks from time to time. But they are more of the service aspect of our TPE relationship. They help me stay on task and provide everything that Sir requires. They help me to be a better slave.
1. Work for 4 hours
4. Vacuum Dining room
5. Clean Bathroom, including scrubbing the shower
6. Dinner – Chicken Stir-Fry
7. Make baby food (use up the ripe mango)
8. Call to set up tattoo appointment (for touch-ups)
Wish me luck!
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