Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

Horny

There was a point in my life when I thought I was asexual. I had too much to keep up with, sex just wasn’t important. It helped that my boyfriend didn’t go to the same college and rarely visited. So when he dumped me, losing the sex wasn’t the end of the world. Even when I met and started dating Sir. Don’t get me wrong, the sex was great; it just wasn’t that important to me. I fell in love with him for his humor and the way we connected. He became my best friend who also happened to be amazing in bed.

As we settled into our marriage with grad schools and full-time jobs the sex would ebb and flow. We found it to be rejuvenating. But I certainly would not go as far as to call it regular. And post baby things probably waned more than either of us would have liked.

Then ‘the book that shall not be named’ happened. It was like an epiphany, but bigger. Finding and releasing my submissive side was like adding caffeine directly to my sex drive. It was crazy to me how instantaneous it was. I wanted sex. I wanted it all the time. It was the first time I really started to consider sex with women, open relationships, threesomes. I was actually considering sex as a positive aspect of my life for once. A necessary piece to my overall happiness and daily activity.

And Sir, bless him, was just trying to keep up with me. I think he enjoyed how excited I was about sex. But his sex drive stayed consistent, around a 6. Mine went from 2 to a 9 in around a month. I must have driven him crazy. I was dragging him down his road of D/s and a constant state of horniness. Which got even worse when I got pregnant with Baby 2.0. My pregnancy was really rough as he struggled with my bump and the fear of hurting me. And the six weeks recovery after I gave birth near killed me.

It’s been almost two years since my sex drive went into hormonal overdrive. It’s like puberty and I’m a teenage boy. I really thought that it was a temporary thing. That finding submission was a high that I would eventually come down from. But I’m not. Through a pregnancy, postpartum, even depression my sex drive has remained high. If I’m good Sir lets me cum twice a week. It’s torture, let me tell you. I love making him cum, but there is also a hint (ok, more than a hint) of jealously when I see that relaxation across his face. His moans of release just turn me on more now.

It has created an odd problem for me. Being submissive makes me happy and extremely horny; but being submissive means that I don’t have control over when I get sex. It’s a constant state of wet and ready. Which is good, I guess. I know Sir likes that I am always ready when he wants to use me. And when he does I wonder how I ever thought that sex was something I could live without.

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5 Responses to “Horny”

  • ancilla ksst

    I’m just nodding the whole way through and thinking “me too, me too, and me too”.

    • Rye

      I’m certainly glad that I’m not the only one. I didn’t even think my sex drive was that low until it spiked. Then I met others who always had a drive like this and realized what I had been missing out on.

  • Horny GeekGirl

    I’ve had times where I’ve just not been interested in sex. In fact I had five years where I went without, and just had the occasional…….relief of a very quick cursory vibrator. Then I had some really great sex, and I mean REALLY GREAT sex, and it was like someone flipped a switch. I could not go that long again. Recently I went 6 months, and they were the longest six months ever.

    HGG. xx

  • Marie Rebelle

    I don’t think I can ever live without sex, and I never thought that my sex drive will go down, but it happened. Menopause seems to have more of an influence than I want it to have, but I still tremendously enjoy sex. And always will 😉

    Rebel xox

  • sub-Bee

    I have and always had a really high sex drive. If I had sex 3 times a day, everyday it still wouldn’t be enough for me! I do know it’s partly down to my raised testosterone levels but I know my discovery of kink has also had a huge impact in that too.

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