Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

Thank You

Inspiration has been a bit lacking lately. Overwhelmed doesn’t even begin to describe my emotions over the last week. The newest is just saying ‘Thank you’. It sounds so easy. I say it to Sir all the time. And it’s not like I’m rude in public. I say thank you. But this is a different animal.

Sir’s mom has offered to help us pay for daycare for the kids. Right now they go half-day. I am supposed to do my paid work in the morning and then attempt to clean and get housework done in the afternoon. But with the boys here I can rarely get everything sorted out. Now, with the house and all of the work that needs to be sorted I am struggling to get my work done in the mornings as well. Tomorrow is our inspection and I know that that will take my entire morning. So the idea of having the freedom in the afternoon to complete work and stay up with the house would be great. Sir and I have talked about sending them for the whole day before, but it was hard to justify the expense. I don’t get paid that much and we are trying to save for the renovation and moving. So I should take her generous gift and just say thank you.

But I was raised that you should work for things. So the idea of just taking money from her sounds horrible. It’s the same with my parents, that are helping us with the down payment of the house so we can save our money for the renovation. I know that they just want to help. They want us to be in a nice home. And I can try to accept it by way of saying that it’s for the kids. They would do well at preschool and daycare full-time. They are social kids and they can get more exercise and interaction than I can give them at home. In the afternoons I am focused on cleaning and I don’t give them the attention they deserve.

So it’s good. I should be happy. But I still feel like I’m taking something that I haven’t earned. This is going to be a rough few months.

5 Responses to “Thank You”

  • kaya

    Speaking as a mother and a grandmother who often does similar things for my grown kids/grandkids, you can’t know how much we enjoy doing things like this. Or how good it makes us feel to be able to DO something useful and worthwhile that will genuinely make a difference and is genuinely appreciated. There are only so many “things” we can buy, but things like this will keep our little grandparenty hearts warm for ages.

    So no guilt! I hate it when my kids feel guilty over things we do for them. I tell them if we couldn’t do it, we wouldn’t do it. Just let us bask in the glory of being involved grandparents. 🙂

    • Rye

      I know they want to help. And I really do appreciate it. All the driving and watching kids is always amazing. And I’m going to owe my dad big when we are done with this renovation. Lots of little gifts will be given over the next few months. I will find ways to show them how much all their help and support means to us.

  • TheCrone

    It’s wonderful that you have Grandparents/Parents that are there for you! My DH’s parents refused to help us (but his siblings are another story) and although mine were unable to offer financial help they provided tangible help when needed. So accept their help – you are their children! But offer thanks yous in the form of little surprises – do they like a certain meal/desert you make? Little things that you remember they like are a wonderful “I’m thinking of you!” And good luck!

  • Sir

    Kaya is right, as she usually is (when not antagonizing Scott).

    Working hard does not just mean selling your labor in the capitalist market. It also means working hard to be a respectful and trustworthy person in the eyes of your family. You should not feel bad for benefiting from that hard work. Think about my ungrateful, selfish, asshole of a brother who cannot figure out how to respect his mother. That is what not working hard looks like. It does not look like memorizing everyone’s birthdays and making sure to spend the months thinking of the “right” gift, or working yourself into a frenzy keeping your children healthy, fed, loving, and warm. You have worked very hard, and you know how I feel about people not being justly compensated for their labor.

    We are going to accept this and many other offers of financial support. You are going to sincerely say “Thank You,” as you always do. Someday, when they need it, it will be our turn to offer financial support to our children. When the time comes, you can appreciate all of the hard work they have done to stay respectful and responsible. You can feel good about your ability to still provide meaningful support to your then-adult children. Like Kaya says, they want “to be able to DO something useful and worthwhile that will genuinely make a difference and is genuinely appreciated.” We will too, someday.

    • kaya

      Antagonize? What? Why, I never!



Allowed tags: <a href="" title=""> <abbr title=""> <acronym title=""> <b> <blockquote cite=""> <cite> <code> <del datetime=""> <em> <i> <q cite=""> <s> <strike> <strong>