Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

Triggers

You know how you can have good days and bad days. Everyone does. My depression ebbs and flows like that too. But it can be triggered by anything. I think some of it is the PTSD, some is just weird old me.

So when I got in the bathroom this morning after the boys had left I found this.

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I always had to replace the soap. That was my task. When it got low, I would grab a new one. If I forgot, he would yell from the shower. During our TPE I would be punished if I forgot. Needless to say, I rarely forgot.

So this box is just one more nail in the coffin of our D/s relationship. Aside from the obvious issue of him leaving the box on the counter for me to clean up (because…men). It was just hard to see it there. Like I had failed again. Like I couldn’t take care of him. One more way I couldn’t be what he needed.

All from a bar of soap. Or at least a box that used to hold one.

One Response to “Triggers”

  • John

    Like I had failed again. Like I couldn’t take care of him. One more way I couldn’t be what he needed.

    You’re looking at it the wrong way. He’s just as much at fault for failing you, and not being what YOU needed. So while it might not all be on him, it’s definitely not all on you either.

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