Those of you who read my blog with any regularity will tell you, I’m stressed out a lot. I’m beginning to think I just make it, like insulin. My body wouldn’t know what to do if it wasn’t under extreme stress. And Sir decided to try and find out.
Last night, after we got the kids to bed, Sir came downstairs with the riding crop and a vibrator. And though they seemed like standard items for a scene, this would be a new challenge for me.
First, he had me kneel on the floor with my face on the carpet. He rested his feet on the back of my head. We stayed like that for about ten minutes; he wanted me to focus on preparing my submissive headspace. It was actually quite calming. To keep the calm going he had me wash his feet. It was nice to be able to focus on something small (not that his feet are small). But the water was warm and I just sank into the task.
When I came back from cleaning up the water he had me kneel. I was to focus my breath through my nose and not let anything pull my mind. It was difficult for me; my mind doesn’t focus easily. I am getting better with meditating, it needs to be a goal as I try and reduce my stress levels day to day. He let me stay like that for awhile, just breathing calmly. I have no idea how much time passed. My feet fell asleep, so maybe twenty minutes or so.
Then the evening turned into what would be considered a more ‘traditional’ scene. He had me lay across his lap as he spanked and fingered me. The riding crop made an appearance. But even during this he had me focus on the sting of the spanking, or on how my pussy felt. Spankings generally relax me, but this focus got me near subspace much quicker than normal. Then he let me play with the vibrator while he watched. I was allowed to come, but the focus was to find a place that felt good, but didn’t quite get me to orgasm. That was hard considering how long it had been, but it was another practice in focus that I hadn’t tried before.
The scene finished upstairs with me focusing on his cock (something I do quite well) and a very satisfying cuddle. The whole scene left me feeling relaxed and proud of myself for being able to focus on each individual task. I know I was able to please him and not having to worry about everything else for awhile was amazing. It reminded me of what first drew me to D/s and a submissive mindset. Letting the world go and just being in a moment of service.
I hope we have more scenes like that soon. Maybe I’ll get to wash more than his feet next time.