Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

An Eventful Year

Have you ever been too afraid to try something? So worried or concerned that it will go tits up that you don’t try? I used to do that all the time. It was my answer for everything regarding relationships.

This year I have really tried to take steps to change that. When Sir decided to take a break from D/s I thought my world was falling apart. But I have really used it as a chance to try some of those things I was always too scared. I’ve been loaned, I had my first threesome, my first time with a woman. All experiences I would not have done otherwise.

Now the loan in May was rough. I didn’t go about it the right way. Not following my own rules on my comfort level left me with a little regret that I jumped in with both feet. But, I learned from it.

Last week Sir and I tried switching for a night. Talk about out of my comfort zone! But it was a good time. I think we were both surprised at how much it flowed for us. And hey, I got to grind my clit into this mouth, so I enjoyed it. And I think when we went back into our more standard D/s roles over the weekend it made it even hotter for both of us.

This last year has given me the chance to try and clarify what type of submissive I am. I have slowly become much more of a princess and pet, but certainly still a greedy slut. Can’t wait to see what happens next year.


2 Responses to “An Eventful Year”

  • Jack (and Jill)

    We’ve both found that sometimes one needs to take a risk. I’m not talking about throwing caution to the wind and losing sight of basic common sense, I’m just talking about occasionally leaving our comfort zone. Sometimes it works out beautifully. Other times, perhaps not so much. But I can’t imagine life without taking a chance once in awhile. I’m glad it seems to be going well, and I hope it continues to. And I hope it goes without saying that I hope to be a part of it.

  • Tamar

    It sounds like you’re both exploring new things and having fun and that’s a good thing. Don’t get too hung up on titles and labels, they’re honestly meaningless as they mean different things to different people. Find what you enjoy, what thrills your soul and feeds your needs, and don’t let yourself get too carried away with it that you neglect to take good care of yourself and feed the other areas of your life as well. It’s easy to get caught up in the heady kinky sexy stuff and crave it like a drug, but like a drug, it can take over and make you lose balance in your life and when that happens, sometimes it becomes unhealthy. Have fun and find your own balance and enjoy being brave as you learn and grow from your experiences.


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