Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

An uncollared submissive struggling with depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm

So much has changed in the last few months I felt like the blog needed a bit of a re-working. The title will stay ‘Chasing Me, Chasing You’. I still feel like that most of the time. But, the subtitle is now a bit more accurate and my Rules and Contracts pages are gone. Not sure if my posts will change much, but I am hoping to start writing more. I guess I am hoping I can try and feel more authentic when I write.

I always felt like I couldn’t express how hard this roller-coaster has been. Not sure if I was more worried about actually admitting it to myself or the fear of my husband reading it. I don’t want him to be hurt, but that doesn’t make my hurt go away. But, he admitted that he doesn’t read this anymore. It was painful to hear that, but I’ve decided to take it as a positive and use this space to write what I really feel. No more sugar coating or holding back.

So, fair warning, you may have to put up with a certain amount of whinging. I’m hoping I can also write about all the kink fantasies and poly experiences that are running around in my brain. Maybe if I can release those feelings here I can deal with my vanilla life better. And, having a place to post all the lovely photos of when Jack and I do manage to get together is always nice.

A few weeks ago I thought I was going to need to walk away from writing in general and the blog all together. I mean, the website is called ‘collared mom’. With only half of that still being true I could not bear to even think about posting anything. Not writing has hurt. And it didn’t make sense to me to add to my pain. Reading of those who attended Eroticon this year just reminded me how much I want to be part of this community. I will start saving to attend next year, as I need to do this for me.

Thank you all for your continued support and I hope those of you who keep reading aren’t disappointed.

2 Responses to “An uncollared submissive struggling with depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm”

  • Tamar

    I can’t speak for anyone else, but for me- authentic and real is way more engrossing and interesting to read than fantasy. Real and authentic I can connect with, empathize with, care about that person’s journey through life and the real highs and lows and the struggles we all deal with along the way. Fantasy is dull to me, and there’s a disconnect I just can’t get past. It’s funny, I used to eat up the ‘submissive erotic fantasy’ stories, back when I was standing on the outside of the BDSM scene looking in. But after being in it for a few years, the fake and the fantasy is so easy to spot and the real and the gritty and the not always perfect and pretty has become much more dear to me to find. Anyone can be fake. Anyone can write fantasy. It takes a brave soul to bare the raw and the real to the world and that is what I personally gravitate towards, I admire that courage, that strength, and I commiserate with their fears and failures and how they get back up and try to make things better. After being in the scene these last few years, I find that real is way more sexy than fantasy as well. I don’t know if everyone evolves like that but that’s where I’m at.

    I love your writing, and hope you continue to write, not for anyone else, but for yourself, whatever you wish to write and however you wish to write it.

    • Rye

      Thank you dear. Your support through all my ups and downs has been wonderful. Thanks for reading.


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