Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

Kink vs. Romance or Kink & Romance

Can you have kink and romance or are they always mutually exclusive? My fingers are crossed that they can be found together, at least occasionally. My husband does his best with both. It seems that most romantic novels on the subject either highlight one or the other. Very few can adequately portray a BDSM relationship, must less with any romantic twist. I have found a few that do cross the divide without being too cheesy or judgmental.

The Masters of the Shadowlands Series by Cherise Sinclair
There are currently seven books in the series that revolve around a BDSM club in Tampa, Florida. Each story follows a relationship in the club touching on various aspects of the lifestyle (general misconceptions, sadism, master/slave, discipline). Most include a growth of either the master or his submissive in various ways and an element of action.

I have tried several other authors, but most don’t cover the romantic or kinky bases effectively. I will admit, however, that some of this has created a bias as I look at my expectations of my own BDSM relationship. But hey, what are good romance novels for?

The Witching Hour

There is an hour, between 9 and 10 in the morning, where both my children push every possible button I have. I think there is some chemical trigger that sets them off. They know my coffee hasn’t kicked in yet and Sir has left for work, so they attack with everything they’ve got. By the time 10 rolls around I am near tears and spend the rest of the day trying to recoup my sanity. This rarely works.

Coupled with lack of sleep and this hour is the constant downfall of day. Being a stay at home mother is harder than anything else I have ever done. I know it was for the best, with Sir’s job forcing the move, it didn’t make sense to commute and pay for daycare. But the last six months have been full of change and craziness.

As a continuing theme of life change in 2014, Sir and I have decided to ramp up the BDSM now that I am healed from childbirth. This, of course, is purely up to his whims. And I know that it makes me a terrible submissive, but I feel like he is really dropping the ball. I can feel myself turning into a brat in the effort to get attention. Being home with a three year old and a 3-month old doesn’t leave much time for me. The idea of getting to serve and have some sort of personal release is getting too difficult to ignore.

We’ll see how much longer I can attempt to keep everyone in the house happy. As long as I continue to ignore my own need to sleep and personal happiness, then I have a shot. The dog seems to think I’m doing a good job.