Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

Time Lapse Kitchen

So the contractors are finishing up in the kitchen. Some simple hook ups are left for the range and the dishwasher. They should be done by the end of the week. It’s hard to believe that it originally looked like this:

The original kitchen
Our pre-demo kitchen.

I can hardly believe that there wasn’t a single light in the entire kitchen. The light on the counter was the only light in the room.

The original view from the front door.
The entryway closet that we removed.

I think these pictures were taken in October when we got the keys. That’s my mom’s leg with her knee brace and she’s in shorts, so it can’t have been to late into the fall.

Stage two of the kitchen with open floor plan.

This picture was from around February. You can see how big the space is without that closet and the added dining room space.

Kitchen cabinets
Cabinet delivery day.

Cabinets were delivered on time and Sir and ran circles around the room with joy. Well, I ran around the room, he laughed at me.

Kitchen Cabinet Installed

It took until mid-March, but kitchen finally started to take shape as the cabinets were installed.

Kitchen island

The counter top and back-splash made me want to stay. Definitely more than one ugly lamp for lighting now.

Finished kitchen

Finished kitchen

These pictures were taken about a week ago. The faucet has since been installed in the island. I’ll have to put up completely finished pictures when the house is all done. But this is our pretty kitchen. We never could have done this kind of work ourselves. With only my dad’s help and weekends as we all work, it would have taken us a year to complete. And the Amish built custom cabinets were worth it.

But now you guys can see why I want to just have full on sex with my new kitchen. My new fantasy is just to have a massive orgy on my new counter top. And hey, we chose the floor and the solid-surface counters for easy clean up. Because why do a remodel of your kitchen if at the end you can’t have sex in it?

Back to Monday

I felt weird not posting this weekend. Though I’m not sure you would have been entertained by me talking about stain colors and the process of applying polyurethane. Lots of good hard work though. Dad and I finished the upstairs and Sir painted the fireplace. The contractors should finish the first floor this week, which is good as we are moving in on Saturday. We’ve taken several car loads of boxes and some small furniture down, but there is still quite a bit to put in the truck.

Now we are getting down to the nitty gritty though. Lots of changing mailing addresses and sorting through paperwork. Maybe I’ll pack naked this afternoon to feel a little sexy.

Some Air

Sir and I finally got some air. Things have been tight financially as we’ve gotten closer to the official move and through some finagling and some luck we got a breather yesterday. It’s not a lot, but it is just enough at the right time.

When he came home from work last night he seemed lighter. Both of our good moods seeped through the house. The kids were cute and nondestructive (mostly). We even packed several boxes and loaded my car for drop-off.

I was almost surprised when, after the kids went to bed, he ordered me to kneel and shoved his cock in my face. Not complaining, it had just been so long since that has happened that I wasn’t prepared. It was nice. Not a big scene or anything, we’re easing back in. Getting back to regular sex is a good first step. Whips and chains are easy to add as we go (easy for me anyway).

Sometimes you just need that one positive thing to make everything more manageable. Your brain is so overwhelmed and depressed, but one piece of good news and remind you that you can get passed it. Whatever it is may not magically fix everything, but it crosses one thing off the list. When that list has done nothing but grow, it’s amazing how much lighter it can make you feel. Both Sir and I last night had some air and some breathing room. Sir even came twice. He hasn’t been relaxed enough to do that in months.

I am heading to the house today to stain floors and finishing painting the upstairs. I’ve been really happy at all the work I have been able to do either by myself or with dad’s help. I think it will be great to be able to say that we did all the work in renovating the upstairs. Since we are looking to move at the end of the month I will probably need to spend the weekend there to get the floors finished, but they do look nice so far. And some of the stress relief from today is going to help us finish up some of the projects downstairs too.

It’s so nice to finally feel like we are getting there. Though it does reinforce how ready we are to be out of this rental. Hoping to use the motivation to pack more boxes the next few days. The boys are going to think it’s Christmas in July when we unpack all these toys we have had boxed up the last few months. Maybe we won’t have to buy anything for their birthdays this year. Knowing my kids I doubt it.

That time again

It’s that time again…time for the obligatory house renovation update. At this point we are still hoping to be moved in by Sir’s birthday at the end of April. We are getting painting done slowly and the floors will hopefully get sanded and stained after Easter. Then comes all the sorting, packing, and heavy lifting. And this time I won’t be 30-weeks pregnant when we move, so Sir might actually let me lift something. Or possibly make me lift everything, could be a double-edged sword.
Baby's room in the new house with orange wall.

The tiny toddler’s room. I was planning to paint the closet, but I actually kind of like the blue. Once the floor gets done and the furniture moved in, the boy will have so much play space he won’t care what color the closet is.
Master bedroom in the new house with navy wall.

Our master. You can’t see the closets or the bathroom, but they are there. The navy actually turned out pretty well. There will be a lot of lights to keep the navy from making the room too dark. And, well, Sir doesn’t really mind it dark anyway. I honestly wouldn’t be surprised if, in time, the entire room got a bit darker.

Older toddlers room in the new house.

The older toddler’s room. I know, it looks plain, but he can’t have an accent wall like the rest of us to keep it simple. No, he wants a red racing stripe around the room. So this is the undercoat, and then I need to go back and paint the red next week. The things we do for our kids.

Office in the new house with green wall.

The office. I didn’t have to fight too hard for my green. My desk will probably be along that wall and Sir’s will be along the opposite wall. He had a wonderful idea yesterday that we should put our love seat and a coffee table in here so we can be comfy together while we work. I have a feeling that we wouldn’t end up getting a lot of work done. We’ll have to keep the toys on the other side of the house so we won’t be too tempted.
Kitchen in the new house with blue wall.

This is the kitchen thus far. You can’t see the new floor, but it’s been installed. We are looking at some barn siding for around the fireplace (the ones on the right), but we’ll see what we can find in the barn when we go to my parents for Easter. Hopefully the cabinets will be installed this week and we can keep moving forward on the downstairs. Still a few more coats of paint to do (though I really like this blue tinted primer). As soon as a room is finished we want to start moving things in. Lots of little trips ahead.


Backyard in the new house.

Still some work to do outside too. Weeding and setting up the garden over the next few weeks. Hopefully the budget will allow for a deck to be built next spring/summer. We’ll see how both our businesses do this year. Right now the dog is happy with her large running space and I’m happy that the kids can go out and I don’t have to worry about them heading toward the road. Looking forward to growing some vegetable this summer. Maybe even some hot pepper so Sir can make some salsa.

Okay, you probably won’t have to put up with too many more of these. Especially if we can stick to the schedule. I promise, no more than two more. Or at least I’ll try and get some more titty shots in there. You know, the show the contrast of the wall color :).

The Good, the Bad, and the Physical labor

Down to the house today. The kids are going to grandmas and we are painting all day. Hopefully we will get most of the bedrooms painted. Then the last big project will be refinishing all of the floors.

My twitter boyfriend finally talked me into joining his twitter exercise group. It’s really a good thing. I need help being held accountable. And the group is nice. But, of course, me being me, felt the need to start strong. I found a good leg stretch routine. Even coming down the stairs after my shower and hour and a half later I ached. If it were my pussy I would be happy about it.

It’s going to be a long day, but Sir and I have the night alone together. Hopefully we’ll still have some energy tonight. Fingers crossed.

Work day

I will have to fill you all in on our “date” from last night. It diverged a lot from the original plan, but I still had a lovely time. I was just proud of myself for going with the flow. Not long ago that shift would have wrecked me for the entire evening.

But today is all about work. My parents, aunt, two cousins, Sir, and I will be priming the drywall all day. Hopefully with seven of us we can get the kitchen, bathroom, and mudroom primed. Well, six of us. My mom is going to be staining the dresser we are converting into a vanity for the bathroom. And honestly, even though it’s a big space, having six people painting at once could be tight.

So we are moving right along. By us doing the priming we are saving money on labour costs. And we are all hard workers, so it’s nice to be able to put our own elbow grease into it. This is supposed to be our forever home and I want to be a large part of making it perfect.

We are still on track to be in the house by the end of April. Hoping to celebrate Sir’s birthday in our new home.

And don’t worry, I am sure Sir and I will still have enough energy when we get back to enjoy our second night without kids.

These are before pictures. I will probably get pictures from when we are done painting up next week.

Working plastered unpainted bathroom.
This will be the first floor bath.
Working plastered unpainted kitchen
Kitchen extension

This is the area the we ‘took’ from the dining room to make the kitchen larger. You can see the hardwood floor divider is where the wall used to be. The new wall divides this and the new bathroom.

Working plastered unpainted kitchen
New and old pieces of kitchen.

This also shows the add on space. The door on the right will be a pocket door that goes out into the mudroom.

Working plastered unpainted fireplace
The opposite wall of the kitchen with the new cut out to the living room

The hole on the left is what mom and I opened up. We have a new mantle for the fireplace that will be made from a barn beam from the farm.

Working plastered unpainted laundry room
The new mudroom space

This used to be a half bath. Now it will extend the mudroom space so our washer and dryer can be on the first floor.

Working plastered unpainted entry way
The entry way looking from the kitchen

You can kind of see it looking at the floor, but this walkway used to be much narrower. This will help open the kitchen up to front door and bring in a lot more light.

Needless to say, I’m excited. I just wish we could move in tomorrow. Instead I’ll get a work out painting and ruin it with pizza for lunch.

Old House/New Start

This will be the year we move into our house. Not a rental, certainly not our parents’ homes. A place that is ours. We wanted a project, not a turn key home. And we found one.

This is the current state of our kitchen and first floor bathroom:




We finished demo over the weekend. It greatly reduced the cost if we did it ourselves, and we were more than happy to raise a hammer to destruction. There are a lot of pictures of my mother and I gleefully swinging hammers, but you can only see so many of them before you start thinking we’re psychopaths.

But this is our shell. I meet with the contractors today to finalize a start date for them. It will be a few months of work, but a brand new bathroom and kitchen will be worth it. Because this will be our home.

See others’ new starts for the year at this week’s Wicked Wednesday.

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At the new house tearing out the kitchen and dining room today. A great stress relief. But apparently not enough relief as my face is breaking out. I was really hoping that, at thirty, I would be done with acne. Maybe after this renovation Sir will let me get a chemical peel or something.

imageSo we are making progress. More walls to come down today.

Maybe tonight Sir will give me a rub down as I will be quite sore.

But first, coffee. Then, the hammers.



I’m just trying to take everything in from this weekend. Let me show you my dichotomy problem.

Stress relief.
Sir’s Stress Relief.

We need to talk about how much I hate tape. Not the duct tape, though I hate that too. It’s the black electrical tape that Sir wrapped the clothespins with. They stick to the skin and it hurts like a bitch. I’d rather have the splinters.

But anyway, this represents my weekend. We tore out a wall at the new house; at least two more will come down before we’re done. We are still trying to figure out what we’re going to be doing with the kitchen. We have a complete remodel planned, but the space is funky and we still need to figure out where everything is going to go.

The second picture was actually taken first (Thursday night, technically). This was the night that things went terribly wrong. Luckily, my mother-in-law took the kids for some grandma time on Friday. Sir and I ordered a pizza and did a lot of talking. We are both putting a lot of pressure on him. So we are taking a look at everything, maybe taking a step back. Clutching my collar a little tighter the last few days.

I’m worried I can already feel my attitude slipping. I’m not brating, but the thoughts enter my head more than I like. I’m weird about control. Things that I could easily let go of bother me a lot more. And the mounting stress of this renovation isn’t helping. I’m heading to the house two days this week, which is two days of paid work that I have to make up for. Then our budget for this reno is already tightening. At one point over the weekend we had water coming through one of the ceiling fans. Because, why not?

So I’m trying to take one day at a time. We are trying to take one day at a time. And I’m trying to keep everything in perspective. We’ll get there; and this type of relationship doesn’t just happen. Everything takes works along with trial and error. We were just getting so wrapped up in the labels that we weren’t having fun. To be fair, I’m not really having fun now, but at least we will be in the right space moving forward. I just hope that our pace isn’t completely halted by everything else.

I thought for a moment about going to get my hair cut off. A gesture of my ‘freedom’. And as soon as I thought it, I grabbed my long hair and couldn’t let go. I’ve got it bad.