Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

Sir’s First Task: The Basement Part II

Sewing desk before cleaning
Basement Pre-Clean 3

Waking up on Saturday morning I was more motivated than I had been in a very long time. After reviewing the photos I sent, Sir had given me my marching orders. I needed to clear my sewing table so that I could realistically use my sewing machine. Hopefully that would encourage me to find more time to get down there and use my private space to refresh. Also, as the boys get older and search out their own private time, I could use it more regularly. I also needed to clear the catch all table so that I could use it for sewing prep and other creative projects.

So with coffee in hand and a background noise of The Great British Baking Show on my laptop I began to clean. I decided to focus on the black table first. It was where I had hoped to set up my laptop when I was down there, and have all my stationary materials. I am a big fan of handwritten notes and I have a large stash of postcards that I enjoy sending to family and friends. They are just a nice way of letting someone know you are thinking of them. And I love getting mail.

Cleaned stationary desk
Basement Clean – Stationary Desk

Sorting through all the paperwork took the most time. I have a pretty good organization system for our receipts and important papers, but when I don’t have time to file everything, it gets thrown in a pile to be sorted later. Later had finally come. Luckily, mixed in with all the important bills were lots of items that could be recycled. And once I got going, sorting out the important bits and the surplus paper went quickly. Trying to jam them into my file cabinet took a little time, but I got there.

Cleaned sewing table
Basement Clean – Sewing Table

Separating items into what I used for stationary and what I used for sewing helped me give the tables different uses. And my collection of little boxes were perfect for all my thread and sewing trims. I was pretty happy with the way both spaces turned out and I really hoped Sir was too.

I sent him photos as well as the ‘after’ photos I posted on twitter. I was so relieved when he wrote back that he was impressed. I even got a ‘good girl’. It was the biggest self-confidence boost I’ve had in a long time. I was practically gooey just hearing that he was proud of me. Sometimes I worry that I have daddy or general parenting issues because of how much I want someone to be proud of me. It’s the nicest compliment that I can ever receive.

All this meant that I went to the office yesterday feeling good, which hasn’t happened in awhile. It’s amazing how my productivity during the weekend and my interactions with Sir can affect my entire week.

Sir has given me the week. I am hoping to use my sewing space a few times and enjoy my hard work. Then we’ll see what he wants me to tackle next. There is a lot down there that doesn’t belong to me. And even more that needs sorted and sold. So I hoping that this project may force the issue on a few things. Or, if nothing else, get me to box things up and store them on the other side of the basement. Keeping my office mine.

So I am sure there will be more updates as this task continues. And I’m sure I will write more as my submission is allowed to grow. This is the most submissive (and likewise best) I have felt in a very long time. I hope Sir allows me to continue to serve in any way he sees fit.

cleaned sewing table and stationary table

 

Productive

So…not exactly housework, but I had a productive morning.

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It’s all pinned and ready to start quilting. If neither of the boys want it I’m sure I will happily take it as a lap blanket for the couch. But, it does feel like I got a lot done this morning.

And, the dishes and laundry got done and I did at least pick up the toys off the floor so Sir won’t trip when he gets home.

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And the dog is already sizing it up. After I took this shot she kicked off the brown blanket in front of her with the paw prints on it. She’s planning to upgrade.

Spring cleaning…six months late

**This blog was originally created in 2010 to document my husband and my life as we tried to get pregnant with our first child. After finding BDSM I repurposed the blog in 2014 to look at our kink and balancing it with the two children we now have. Please feel free to read the below posts and any from my 2010 and 2011 archive, but please be aware that they are not representative of our life now. Also, certain edits have been made to these posts. To start from the beginning of our kinky life, start here. **

This was a hard core cleaning weekend. I will say I get a sense of accomplishment when I scrub the bathroom from top to bottom. The kitchen stayed clean for about five minutes. But good food was made in it, so I can’t complain too much. Steelers won and I got paid on Friday. All in all a pretty good weekend. Now, I won’t see most of that money, but it’s ok.

I did get a lot sorted on my quilt. I bought the king size batting as it was on sale and the queen size was out of stock. I have apparently never seen a queen mattress and a king close together. I didn’t think they were that different. The king size batting is like 10′ x 10′. On our queen it touches the floor on three sides and would be up over our faces. It’s just too big. So I decided to cut the king to fit the size we wanted. So I trimmed it back to 8′ x 7′. I am hoping that will make it more manageable. At least I think I will have enough strips for the front now. I cut the corduroy for the back and I have a lot left over. So I think I will use it with the leftover batting to make something nice. I was actually thinking about a baby blanket. I could trim it in the blue corduroy like ours and then quilt it with a fun design as it will all be one fabric. We’ll see. But work continues.

Back to work tomorrow. After the threat of layoffs a few weeks ago, the place has been anything but quiet.  So it will be interesting to see if we can get some new contracts so we do not have to lose so many workers. I’m still hoping to have a job when it is over, but I am updating my resume just to be on the safe side. The last thing we need to for me to finally get pregnant and then find out I’ve lost my job and our insurance. That last sentence sure doesn’t make it easy to sleep at night. But my boss is staying positive, so I will trust him.

Entering week 7 of law school. D is doing much better this week. A little stressed about a research project, but really on top of his other work. Hopefully we can keep the momentum going throughout the rest of the semester. Although, I can start testing late next weekend and I am afraid that will start the stress cycle again. We see my parents in a few weeks and I would like to know before we see them. I know it sounds strange, but it will be easier not to tell them if I know. If we’re still unsure, then it will show all over my face. But if I have a definite answer I will be better. I’m trying not to get too excited this time. Last month was just such a let down. I have not been on any of my baby sites or anything. I’m not trying to find symptoms that aren’t there. But at the same time, this will be month three. Most couples get a positive within their first three months. And if this is negative, then the worry turns to, “is something wrong with us?”. I would really like to avoid that roller coaster of emotion. Wish us luck.

Quilting madness…

**This blog was originally created in 2010 to document my husband and my life as we tried to get pregnant with our first child. After finding BDSM I repurposed the blog in 2014 to look at our kink and balancing it with the two children we now have. Please feel free to read the below posts and any from my 2010 and 2011 archive, but please be aware that they are not representative of our life now. Also, certain edits have been made to these posts. To start from the beginning of our kinky life, start here. **

Well, my quilting adventure begins. I’ve got about 300 strips to sew together to create 8-10 strips of 10 ft. pieces. Should be interesting. The sad thing is, that’s the easy part. But I’ll update on that when I get there. The strips should keep be busy for awhile. I loaded up on fabric on sale this weekend, so I’ve been cutting like mad. My rotary cutter is getting a workout, but at least the fabric yards were easier to cut than the old pants. Hopefully the fabrics that I bought go well together.  My color palette is really dark, but toby’s habit of shedding all over everything makes it seem like a good plan.

So law school is harder than I thought. My grad school experience was really like a part-time job, which is why working my 20-hour a week internship worked out so well. It’s only been a month and it’s obvious that law school it’s more than a full-time gig. D’s been busier than me lately, and I’ve been working 50 hours. It’s just going to take another few months to really get our schedules in synch. It just feels like we’re roommates who never see each other. And we haven’t been to pleasant either. But we’ll get there. It’s only three years, right?

Fall is here

**This blog was originally created in 2010 to document my husband and my life as we tried to get pregnant with our first child. After finding BDSM I repurposed the blog in 2014 to look at our kink and balancing it with the two children we now have. Please feel free to read the below posts and any from my 2010 and 2011 archive, but please be aware that they are not representative of our life now. Also, certain edits have been made to these posts. To start from the beginning of our kinky life, start here. **

Yes, fall is here. Hopefully the eighty and ninety degree weather that has hindered over us the last several months will dissipate.

Not much new to report. My first negative was followed by three more negatives, so we are back to square one. At least I consider myself through, if not neurotic. I’ve been pretty bummed this week. But getting better.

I did finish my first sets of curtains for the upstairs. They don’t look too bad. I also spent the greater part of yesterday cutting the strips and ironing them for my quilt. Not quite sure what it will turn into, but I’m getting there.

Work should be back to normal this week. The overtime was nice last week and will look really good on my paycheck, but I will be glad to be able to sleep in again. Maybe I can stick to nine-hour days for awhile. It’s weird how at nine I am fine, but at ten I am ready to drop.

So, still trying to avoid caffeine eat better. Hope to enjoy those fall breezes.

Labour Day

**This blog was originally created in 2010 to document my husband and my life as we tried to get pregnant with our first child. After finding BDSM I repurposed the blog in 2014 to look at our kink and balancing it with the two children we now have. Please feel free to read the below posts and any from my 2010 and 2011 archive, but please be aware that they are not representative of our life now. Also, certain edits have been made to these posts. To start from the beginning of our kinky life, start here. **

Yesterday was my labour day. Dad and I did a mass rework of the backyard. We cut down the dead tree that has been threatening to fall into our not-so-nice neighbors yard since we moved in. We trimmed the branches of the very nice neighbors trees that were hanging into our yard. Then we leveled the mounds of dirt on the left side of the walk and spread mulch. The dogs are getting used to it, not eating it as much as I feared. But, in any case, my back is quite sore.

We took my parents to brunch at Coca’s this morning. I really like that place. I had this amazing almond french toast with lemon glaze. It was pretty deadly, but really good. Then we went to the Monroeville Mall and mom and I each bought suits. I pretend like I’m working toward finding a better job. Really, I’m just hoping one will fall in my lap. However, the economy is stifling this pipe dream.

The other new thing is that my father brought me his sewing machine. I’ve never been much of a quilter, but I’m going to try my hand at it again. I’ve been looking for a big project to take on since D started school. I’m sick of watching TV by myself on the weekends while he works. I’m hoping this will keep me from getting too bored and also produce something. I bought some fabric from Etsy that I’m really excited about, so we’ll see what happens. This sewing machine and I have not really even gotten along, so this could be quite the battle of wills. If I do manage to create something even mildly impressive I will be sure to post pictures.

Other than the yard, not really any big holiday plans. I was actually hoping that they would have a skeleton crew in tomorrow so I could pick up some overtime, but oh well. Mom and dad are leaving later this evening and D has school work to do. So, we’ll see what I sort out with setting up the sewing machine and reading my book. Trying to be productive is the goal, but it does not always happen that way.