Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

Never Say Never

I really struggled with this topic of water sports and pee play. I even gave a little sigh (if I’m honest) when it came up. I wanted to sound knowledgable and enlightened, but I couldn’t get passed the desire to shower (obviously not the golden kind).

I have learned never to say never, and for good reason. But certainly not right now seems like a safe bet. I think it has something to do with the kids. I know, it’s like the reverse of a therapist always blaming your mother. My kids are at the fault of everything. However, in this case, it makes sense, I swear.

You know the idea that a male gynecologist can lose his sex drive because he looks at woo-haas all day. Well, currently, I have got more urine than I care to handle. You would think with all the penises I look at I would struggle with other things, but I am good there. But changing diapers constantly and trying to potty train the toddler has me and urine on non-speaking terms.

Maybe in a few years the subject could be broached again, if Sir was interested. I understand there is an enormous humiliation factor as part of it. I struggle with humiliation most of the time. I can take it in small doses, I love to be called names and made to crawl. But I fear that being urinated on, in any capacity, could tap into some extreme emotional responses that Sir doesn’t want to awaken just yet.

Also, the general idea of drinking urine specifically makes me thing of some sort of survivalist set up. Like we’re trapped on a deserted island somewhere and this is the only way to survive. I just can’t make that sexy. Maybe it is one of those ‘in the moment’ things. You get swept up and just run away with the need to serve that during a quick bathroom break in the scene you follow him in. You kneel and offer yourself, he considers, his cock twitches at the thought, and the next moment you have embarked on something you never considered.
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15 Responses to “Never Say Never”

  • Midas

    Comments work ! and … , you crave judgement, I read 😉

    I admit potty training kids, dogs or whichever ‘animal’ can be a pain and burden, but wait till you find ‘used’ socks, hankys, bathroom towels, used condoms and such from your teens …

    • Rye

      I know, I’m scared. I think I will scar them when they become teens and say something like, ‘you can jerk off all you want, but you will clean up after yourself. If you don’t, I won’t muffle my screams anymore’.

  • ancilla ksst

    I think part of the attraction is that it IS kind of gross and nasty. It is partly a humiliation thing, at least for me.

    • Rye

      I get that. And I am not saying anything against ‘gross and nasty’. I mean, he calls me a dirty slut for a reason. 🙂

      But I guess there are degrees for different people. Was it something that you were always interested as part of D/s, or did you add it over time?

      • ancilla ksst

        I was never interested at all until he started doing it. At first it was just on my chest. I didn’t mind, it was kind of hot the first time, even. Then on my face too, and in my mouth. I’ve never had to drink a lot though. He does it in the shower to keep the mess washed down.

  • Velvet Rose

    I am really pleased that you have posted this as I know from your conversations on Twitter last night you were worried about doing so.

    You should not have worried it is a great post!

    This is one of my and M’s kinks and I am going to be posting on the subject.

    I, like you, used to find the whole idea repulsive but my feelings and thoughts on the subject have changed.

    Keep your mind open on the subject and as you say “never say never” you really do never know how you may change your mind, I did!

    Remember the acronym “YKINMK” (your kink is not my kink) but it’s always ok (there was a great Wicked Wednesday prompt on just this subject back in June of last year). It would be boring if we were all the same!

    Velvet x

    • Velvet Rose

      ps – love the new theme!

    • Rye

      I like that YKINMK. That is very true. I read about a lot of relationships where I sit there and say to myself, ‘I would be out the door so fast his head would spin’. But obviously, it works for them.

      That is what I always take from the term ‘vanilla’ relationship. There is nothing to set it apart, nothing to make it special. Our varying kinks make us (and you all) special.

  • tori

    I love it, everything to do with it lol

    But its like any aspect of humiliation, or indeed anything to do with bdsm etc, its a very personal thing, i dont mind being called a slut…but slag! no way, that just triggers me off in a negative way.

    I must say, i do like this new blog layout.

    • Rye

      Thank you. A stop gap while I sort out a permanent solution, but I am also a fan.

      I think you hit the nail on the head with the personal thing. I can handle being called any name in the book, but if he tells me to ‘shut up’, I ball like a little baby. No idea why.

      Learning and adapting to those triggers is a big part of all this.

  • ancilla ksst

    I have certain things that will send me into meltdown situation if he does them too. I think we all have our sensitive areas. I don’t really know how to deal with them except to hope he doesn’t what ever the thing is anymore.

  • DtBHC

    From a male stand point this is not so much an issue or maybe it’s just me. As we grow up we get the opportunity to play around as we pee, see how far, how high, boys being boys. We piss on ourselves, sometimes on the person standing next to you, on our mothers as wee babies, use it to get rid of foot fungus, we are told it is a good steriliser, we pee in the shower. I think pee play is something that doesn’t phase us. I’m sure most men have tasted it at some stage as well. I would also say the same for cum.

    So it’s not such a big deal, I think it’s how it’s viewed by women from a humiliation point of view that is the turn on. I seen written somewhere before that if men had periods they would have somehow found a way to have fun and celebrated that as well.

  • Dubs


    You’re young. Did I read somewhere here, 29? Give it time….! In 5 years of jaded kink, you’ll look back on these posts as cute!!

    All the best.

    • Rye

      I am sure. Even in this first year that we have started this, I have done things (and loved them) that I would have sworn would always be on my hard limits list.

  • sub-Bee

    I’m with you in this one, I’ll never say never and I completely understand the humiliation element but this really isn’t for me either and I honestly can’t imagine that ever changing!


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