Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

Who knew?

I just want him to love me for the me that I am. I’m not that girl he fell in love with in college. I’ve changed. And I thought it was for the better. I thought he would love me more this way.

But now I just think he wants me the way I was before. Repressed and lonely. I know he doesn’t want that, but he doesn’t want this me either.

So I was talking to my twitter boyfriend. He was trying to help. A clear perspective is nice. Though not always easy to hear.

“What I am saying is that part of the issues might be that he doesn’t like the current sexual you. You haven’t always been like this so there might be something that is impacting on how sexually attractive he finds you and it’s nothing about the sex, but about the attitude to sex.”

Who knew that being a slut could be a bad thing?

5 Responses to “Who knew?”

  • ancilla ksst

    I have a hard time believing that is true from the things he’s written. You need to talk to your husband about this.

    Of course you have changed. We all change through out life, and just because he loved you as you were back then doesn’t mean he doesn’t love the new you just as much. That’s why talk to him.

  • John

    I would have been your Twitter boyfriend!!! Oh, that’s right, I’m gay…..

    • Rye

      Sorry, no penis here. But I always like to chat.

  • John

    We used to chat a lot on Twitter, then your husband got upset and I got messages from him asking why I was trying to instigate things. I never answered him, he wouldn’t have understood what we talked about.

  • Jz

    It might not be that he doesn’t find this you attractive, it might be more that your new you makes him uncomfortable with his current self…
    It may not be that he prefers the old you, per se, he just wants to go back to where he felt comfortable.
    (just a thought)

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