Chasing Me Chasing You

An uncollared submissive struggling through depression, motherhood, and the constant craving of her next orgasm.

Horrible Truth

Ok, the first truth isn’t that horrible. It’s just a truth. It’s about oral. I love giving oral sex. Sucking cock is one of my favorite things. Using my mouth to bring someone such pleasure is a true joy for me. One of the few things that gives me power that actually enjoy. I also loved the one time I was able to give oral sex to a woman. I can get into a zone where it’s calming. Just to sink into the other person’s pleasure. So erotic. I get turned on as I do it and when they cum I get the strongest sense of satisfaction.

Here’s that horrible part. It’s also about oral. I’m getting sick of it. I know, it’s hard for even me to accept. But I am. It’s just not fun.

I think it may because it’s all we do. We don’t have penetrative sex of any kind. Certainly no ‘All Anal November’ for me this year. We had sex the other day, in the middle of the afternoon. It was blissful. But it was no foreplay, no aftercare (though we aren’t D/s anymore), and I didn’t cum. He gave me oral for the first time in six months the other day. I’m not sure what caused the sudden change of heart toward my vagina, not that I’m complaining. But aside from these few breaks from the norm over the last few weeks, oral sex has been the limit of our intimacy.

As I previous stated, I love oral sex. But I’m getting to the point where I just need a break. I just groan when photo after photo comes up on my naughty tumblr. I can’t masturbate to it anymore. And whenever I see it in porn I tend to roll my eyes. Which just feels sad. I want to love it all the time. And it feels wrong that oral just doesn’t inspire me anymore.

Maybe I just want to be appreciated more. Maybe I just want a bit of a challenge. Maybe I just need to be fucked. Or more likely, a little from all three.

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6 Responses to “Horrible Truth”

  • Marie Rebelle

    I am so sorry to hear this. Is it possible for you to talk to him about it? To tell him how it makes you feel? I hope things will get better…

    Rebel xox

  • Modesty Ablaze

    I know it’s a terrible cliche . . . BUT . . . VARIETY is the spice of life!!!
    And, if it was me, I’d be teasing, intriguing, inviting . . . probably even DEMANDING . . . “why don’t we try THIS” !!!
    Xxx – K

  • Jack (and Jill)

    I’m sorry things have been so staid and lacking in variety of late. I would like to be able to provide you the excitement and variety you need, and though it’s likely to take awhile, I hope to be able to do so soon. (I know that doesn’t help much.)

  • Nero

    When I read the first paragraph I was like ‘Damn! where can I meet this unicorn?’ but then we get to the horrible part. Yes, it is horrible. I read your ‘About Me’ post and I see that you guys have put your D/s relationship on hold. I think you should talk to him about what you’ve mentioned here (does he read your blog) and see if you can work out a solution together. Maybe try ‘scheduled sex’ but with the caveat ‘No Oral December’ which will force you to try new things/foreplay for a month. And as Modesty Ablaze says, don’t be shy about asking for what you want. Maybe take turns in deciding ‘what you do’ on those nights you get intimate. It sound like your man might be a little stressed out so he might welcome being told (playfully) what to do for a change.
    (my apologies if I’m mansplaining)

  • Kayla Lords

    I think it’s completely possible to get bored with any type of sexual activity…especially when you’re not getting what you need in return. and I am so sorry that’s how it is for you. ((HUGS))

  • Indigo Byrd

    All of the above. I hope you get it sorted out soon.
    Indie x


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